When I started to write this entry, I could have sworn that I had written it
before, enough so to make me go check my archives to make sure, but nothing was
there. Then I remembered, the last time ?attempted? to write something
about the same subject, I had hit the post button only for blogger.com to return
a server time out error.
I?m now writing this out on my PDA, having tried
once already to submit it and again for blogger.com to be down. At least
this time I?ll have a copy to paste in when it fails again.It must be all those
Kerry fans pouring their hearts out on their blogs. (I feel a post coming on
about that later on).

Its 00:10 and I?m feeling really down about my back again. I?ve been off work for almost 2 weeks now. I?ve been having back problems for quite a few years now, but only in the last 2 years has it begun to get really bad. Whilst in Okalahoma a few years back, I came off at high speed whilst tubing. The end result was a few somersaults that further compressed an already dodgy back. That required a 360 degree spinal fusion to ultimately fix it, but only after 11 epidurals and a rhizotomy.
Since coming back to the UK, my back has not really shown an improvement and has been getting worse. I?ve not been able to partake in any sort of exercise without suffering a lot of pain, and it has now reached the point whereby I am not able to sleep or find any comfortable position. I am starting to look like a 6?3? prune having had so many hot baths recently. I?ve also just purchased an excellent mattress complete with massage unit which is more comfortable, but as soon as I fall asleep, I move and it wakes me up again. I?ve taken a couple of sleeping tablets the last few nights, but then I stay in the same position all night and I spend the day walking round like the hunchback of Notre Dame.

What I need to do is to find a happy medium (and I don?t mean Doris Stokes in the toy section of her local Anne Summers shop).
After my last set of scans, it appears that the fusion has failed and there is no bone graft visible. This may go some way to explain the problems, but the last thing I need right now is to have the whole thing refused. (If you could see the chunk that the last surgeon took out of my pelvis for the donor area, you?d know why. I swear you can see the teeth marks). On the 16th November, I am going to have a caudal epidural. If this does not work, then we will look at something called piriformis syndrome.

Anything is better than having the fusion re-done, but I am at my wits end and can?t put up with this for much longer.
On top of this, I am going for an arthogram on my right hip tomorrow because x-rays have shown signs of damage. This basically involves the injection of a dye into the area and then an MRI taken. Again, this is an old injury flaring up again, probably due to me changing my stance due to my back (the old hunchback again !!).
I need a new body !!